I wish I could tell you that every day in our homeschooling home is hearts and roses. I can’t.
Today was a non heart/flowers day. Admittedly, I can attribute many of today’s issues due to my foul mood. Today’s lengthy to –do/appointments list was a major contributor to my crankiness – too many things to do, too many places to be, too little time.
The girls key off my mood – today they were wild children. If they weren’t outright ignoring my requests, they questioned them – which didn’t improve my mood. Our last appointment was the final Monday night rehearsal for the Nutcracker. On the drive home, I advised them to get into bed as quickly as possible upon our arrival at home. My frustration, annoyance and impatience was clearly evident.
You can always count on God to gently (or not so gently) point you in the direction of what you need to read.
Love is patient, love is kind and is not jealous; love does not brag and is not arrogant, does not act unbecomingly; it does not seek its own, is not provoked, does not take into account a wrong suffered, does not rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. 1 Corinthians 13:4-7 (NASB) (emphasis mine)
It wasn’t my girls who were wild children today – it was me. It wasn’t my girls’ fault that our schedule was so packed – it was mine. I was completely out of control.
Forgive me, Father.
My girls are already asleep. They went to sleep bathed not in my unconditional love, but thoughts of my being annoyed. Father, please give them sweet dreams – I’ll apologize first thing tomorrow morning.